I'm excited!! So many things to do :D I can't wait wait wait!!
Things I want to do sometime soon:
1) Water Ski
2) Cycle
3) Chill out at Sentosa
4) Arts Fest
5) Heritage Trail with Khin
6) Walk about Mt Faber with Khin
7) Bake some frosted cupcakes
8) Go for a picnic
Looking forward to!!! YAY!!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
What does it mean when the guy you love refuses to take photos with you and even gets pissed with you for taking photos of him saying he doesn't like taking pictures? Yet, he is able to take over 20 pictures with the rest of the world?
What does it mean when the guy you love doesn't have fun with you and your friends but yet he's able to party with his friends and enjoy it even when he's tired?
Does this mean that he's able to do nice things for everyone else and oblige to them but not you? I thought if the guy was truly in love with you, he would do anything for you. Anything to make you happy. I always thought that maybe his rules were applied to everyone but clearly I was wrong.
I must be blind. I must be blind that I cannot see that this guy is not willing to do anything for me. I must be blind that I turned a blind side to the fact that he cant even take pictures with me. That he doesn't even want to be caught dead with me. How could I have been so stupid?
You probably think this is a small issue. Its not about the fact that its about pictures. Its about the principle. "How is it that he is able to this with other people but not me?" This is the question that keeps ringing in my head. This is not the first time either. I'm not arguing about the photos, I'm arguing about the principle. If he didn't like taking photos, then how does he look so happy in the ones taken? The fact that he's even posing in them. Yet when I ask for them, you can never EVER see a happy smile. What the hell does this mean?!
I'm so angry I feel like I could explode. I need a guy who will do anything to make me happy. I don't want to be stuck making someone happy who never makes an effort to do the same for me. I'm so over this crap. I have seriously had enough.
I feel like I've taken a severe blow in the gut.
What does it mean when the guy you love doesn't have fun with you and your friends but yet he's able to party with his friends and enjoy it even when he's tired?
Does this mean that he's able to do nice things for everyone else and oblige to them but not you? I thought if the guy was truly in love with you, he would do anything for you. Anything to make you happy. I always thought that maybe his rules were applied to everyone but clearly I was wrong.
I must be blind. I must be blind that I cannot see that this guy is not willing to do anything for me. I must be blind that I turned a blind side to the fact that he cant even take pictures with me. That he doesn't even want to be caught dead with me. How could I have been so stupid?
You probably think this is a small issue. Its not about the fact that its about pictures. Its about the principle. "How is it that he is able to this with other people but not me?" This is the question that keeps ringing in my head. This is not the first time either. I'm not arguing about the photos, I'm arguing about the principle. If he didn't like taking photos, then how does he look so happy in the ones taken? The fact that he's even posing in them. Yet when I ask for them, you can never EVER see a happy smile. What the hell does this mean?!
I'm so angry I feel like I could explode. I need a guy who will do anything to make me happy. I don't want to be stuck making someone happy who never makes an effort to do the same for me. I'm so over this crap. I have seriously had enough.
I feel like I've taken a severe blow in the gut.
Monday, November 16, 2009
By the sweat of your face You will eat bread, Till you return to the ground, Because from it you were taken; For you are dust, And to dust you shall return.
Genesis 3:19
Genesis 3:19
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I cant believe how fragile life is. I'm not sure how to deal with it. It's like we're all walking glass dolls and that we can break anytime. Its so scary. Maybe the end isn't that far away after all? Has anyone noticed that recently there are more people passing away than usual?
It sucks to be the one left behind. The one who has to be the one to deal with the loss. I wonder what the departed must feel? Do they feel anything at all? I wonder what the other side must feel like? Is it a separate parallel universe? What happens to a soul when the body dies? Does it cease to exist? What does God look like? Does God have a face? So many questions. I wish I knew. I'm not afraid of dying. The thought of my own death has never bothered me but the thought of the people left behind to deal with my loss is what I would feel upset about. If I die, please everybody, don't be sad. Just throw me a party for my funeral and have loads of frozen strawberry margaritas. It would be a send out in true Sid style. I would want my life to be a celebration of the person that I was.
The recent events in my life have led me to think that this very moment I could be alive and kicking but you never know if this would be the same in the next few minutes. You can't assume that anymore. That's how fragile life really is. All it takes is a split second and you're gone. Tragic isn't it?
I feel afraid these days. Afraid that I might lose someone I love and treasure. I feel that some one's gonna get me up telling me some one's passed on or that some one's going to call me and tell me I've lost someone. It's scary. Yes it is. Maybe the world really is coming to an end? So God's taking away all the good people and leaving the rest for the final curtain call? That's why so many people are passing away?
I live for the moment now. Every thing's a 100% because I'm afraid that if I don't give a 100%, I might lose that person and I'll regret not doing so. I'll never get the chance to make it right for them and it will haunt me for the rest of my life. I don't want to live a life with regrets. I just wish time would stop running so fast so I can spend heaps of time with everyone.
I'm happy with how I've lived my life :)
It sucks to be the one left behind. The one who has to be the one to deal with the loss. I wonder what the departed must feel? Do they feel anything at all? I wonder what the other side must feel like? Is it a separate parallel universe? What happens to a soul when the body dies? Does it cease to exist? What does God look like? Does God have a face? So many questions. I wish I knew. I'm not afraid of dying. The thought of my own death has never bothered me but the thought of the people left behind to deal with my loss is what I would feel upset about. If I die, please everybody, don't be sad. Just throw me a party for my funeral and have loads of frozen strawberry margaritas. It would be a send out in true Sid style. I would want my life to be a celebration of the person that I was.
The recent events in my life have led me to think that this very moment I could be alive and kicking but you never know if this would be the same in the next few minutes. You can't assume that anymore. That's how fragile life really is. All it takes is a split second and you're gone. Tragic isn't it?
I feel afraid these days. Afraid that I might lose someone I love and treasure. I feel that some one's gonna get me up telling me some one's passed on or that some one's going to call me and tell me I've lost someone. It's scary. Yes it is. Maybe the world really is coming to an end? So God's taking away all the good people and leaving the rest for the final curtain call? That's why so many people are passing away?
I live for the moment now. Every thing's a 100% because I'm afraid that if I don't give a 100%, I might lose that person and I'll regret not doing so. I'll never get the chance to make it right for them and it will haunt me for the rest of my life. I don't want to live a life with regrets. I just wish time would stop running so fast so I can spend heaps of time with everyone.
I'm happy with how I've lived my life :)
Friday, November 06, 2009
Random Updates:
1) The KL trip is over - It was truck loads of girly fun and I loved every moment of it. I'm thinking we should totally do it again. Rashita thinks Koh Samui next! YAY!!
2) Halloween is over - Didn't do anything this year. I don't feel like I missed much either coz I wasn't really feeling it this year.
3) Dad's birthday is on Sat - YAY!! CAKE! Plus family dinner at Khansama to top it off really nicely!
4) My birthday! - I'm excited for god knows what reason. Planned this out with Nim and Davi yesterday. I believe we will be Rupee-ing so it should be good (Don't judge me. I haven't been there in a while!).
5) Khin's coming back!! - I'm sooooooo excited for this! I can't wait! If only Khin and Shabs could be around for my birthday.
6) Zoukout - Everyone's on for this so I'm gonna pre-book tix!!!!!!!
7) Ajay's wedding - My cousin's getting married!! YAY!! I'm gonna be sooooo busy! Plus we're going clothes shopping soon!!
8) Christmas - Gotta love this time of the year! I love Christmas! LOVE IT!
9) New Year's Eve - That time of the year to make new resolutions. To be with family and friends :)
10) New YEAR! - New year, new outlook, new goals, new style, new look :D Plus its the year of the Tiger! YAY!! Our year again! LOVE IT!
I'm excited for what lies ahead and I'm looking forward to loads of things. We've lost some this year and we have gained some. Most importantly we do not forget the ones we've lost and we treasure the ones we have. Lessons learned.
1) The KL trip is over - It was truck loads of girly fun and I loved every moment of it. I'm thinking we should totally do it again. Rashita thinks Koh Samui next! YAY!!
2) Halloween is over - Didn't do anything this year. I don't feel like I missed much either coz I wasn't really feeling it this year.
3) Dad's birthday is on Sat - YAY!! CAKE! Plus family dinner at Khansama to top it off really nicely!
4) My birthday! - I'm excited for god knows what reason. Planned this out with Nim and Davi yesterday. I believe we will be Rupee-ing so it should be good (Don't judge me. I haven't been there in a while!).
5) Khin's coming back!! - I'm sooooooo excited for this! I can't wait! If only Khin and Shabs could be around for my birthday.
6) Zoukout - Everyone's on for this so I'm gonna pre-book tix!!!!!!!
7) Ajay's wedding - My cousin's getting married!! YAY!! I'm gonna be sooooo busy! Plus we're going clothes shopping soon!!
8) Christmas - Gotta love this time of the year! I love Christmas! LOVE IT!
9) New Year's Eve - That time of the year to make new resolutions. To be with family and friends :)
10) New YEAR! - New year, new outlook, new goals, new style, new look :D Plus its the year of the Tiger! YAY!! Our year again! LOVE IT!
I'm excited for what lies ahead and I'm looking forward to loads of things. We've lost some this year and we have gained some. Most importantly we do not forget the ones we've lost and we treasure the ones we have. Lessons learned.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
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